Rough Draft Craft

It’s pretty damn cold over here

Sitting on ice

Waiting for you to decide

When the time comes that

my love will suffice.

But

I’ve been inside

Mentally not physically

Taking stock of what’s on my mind

The trauma the hurt the joy the intricacies

The messages I got that stunk of

Inconsistency.

I cleaned them

Sorted them

Labeled them

Loved them

Forgave them

And I forgive myself

And now I don’t need to be kept cool

I refuse to be put on a shelf

I am worthy

Of love

Deserving and capable

As much as I thought I wanted it I don’t need to be with someone else

I have opportunity

with no end in sight

Im like a puppy on the porch

bathing in warm sunlight

After being burdened and blanketed by the darkest and coldest of nights

That I told myself I deserved

And I didn’t even put up a fight.

So I don’t need to be kept on ice

I know that for my twin flame

My love will do more than suffice

It will ignite

Strengthening the flame and increasing the light

That guides our path

Adding heart and life to every word

That I write.

So I’m gonna get off this ice and put some in my glass

Despite the fact that it’s been warmed by my ass

I show up for myself

I sit on no shelf

Im giving confidence, king

And away I cast

The feelings of being unworthy

The rejection of myself

The negative self perception

And depression itself

I love my future and embrace it

I wonder what it will bring

Let what comes in come in

and if it doesn’t,

ignore the sting

Because I am my own universe

I am the queen and king

So even if the music hasn’t started yet

It doesn’t matter

Because I love myself and know my worth

I’m ready to sing.

– ghostfacepoet